I know that some of you guys (read as: most) don’t read the blog so for those that do, I also apologize for telling you what I’ve already explained.
Since I moved to Philly, I just haven’t really felt settled. The place we live still has boxes that we haven’t unpacked, my schedule changes weekly, and I’m already an emotional wreck. At my job, which I have a love-hate relationship with I have to keep the smile up and I know I’m not the only one of my co-workers who feel the same way, although some of them are just truly positive people. It’s exhausting being happy and chipper with customers when all I wanna do is either smack them with a brick or be at home doing ANYTHING else. I haven’t seen any of my friends in 5 months, and other than co-workers I have no idea how to make new friends.
Did I forget to mention that I never get to see Jes? ‘Cuz I never get to see her. Right now we have Wednesdays off together, but she works 4pm-12am, and I work 12pm-8pm. I have to leave the house at 10:30 to make sure I get to work on time, so I have to wake up at 8:30 which isn’t bad except that I’m up ’til at very least 12:30 picking her up (though sometimes she works til 1am) so if I want to spend time with her I have to stay up late, like 2 or 3. It’s kinda a lotta frustrating, but it’s the world we live in.
Also I’ve been actively searching for new jobs since this time last year with my only luck being this current job. So I sent out an email to a tattoo artist asking if he had any advice to help me get started down that path and he basically told me “go fuck yourself, it isn’t gonna happen.” I’m feeling really stuck with no way out. If you know of a tattoo artist within an hour of Philadelphia who needs a shop bitch let me know. I’m dying to learn, because it’s a whole skill set that I don’t have but I absolutely adore. Or if you know how to write resume’s let me know, but I’m also reading online that each resume should be aimed at a specific job and I can’t do that.
This is one long pity party, and yes it’s all first world problems but that doesn’t really make me feel any better. The only thing that makes me feel any better is that I’m not quitting or giving up on art/comics. Especially since this weekend at Necrocomicon in NJ I’ll be doing Super Art Fight, and then again down in Baltimore I’ll be doing a tag-team event. Hopefully we can auction off the canvases we make for more than the $700 they made this past weekend at Katsucon.
Oh also, the winner to the sticker contest is Ross!